By age 15, I was already writing very beautiful pieces. My friends envied me and the ones who didn’t tagged me “the poet”. Things, however, changed when I turned 17; I was molested.
With that incident, depression set in and I began to hate myself and everyone around me. The worst happened when I lost my ability to write. I couldn’t talk to anyone about it all and I couldn’t pray for a very long time.
When I finally found the courage to, I prayed deeply and sincerely for forgiveness and I felt peace. Unfortunately, that peace didn’t last; I allowed the Evil One take it from me. Because I could no longer write, I found it hard to forgive myself.
It took a very conscious effort to keep reminding myself of the Saviour’s love for me, to stop worrying about what people thought of me and to do only the things that made me happy.
That meant keeping a journal of the things I was thankful for, forgiving quickly even when I didn’t want to, and for the better part, smiling.
Forgiving yourself will not be easy, but you can do it. Sincerely ask for the Saviour’s help and focus more on doing the things He wants you to do.
CHINA TORI 
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